To do, what to do

I'm going back and forth between anxiety, about my miles long to do list, and determination.

I can do this. I'm not gonna succumb into apathy, overwhelmed by fear and self doubt.

I just need to structure my daily life. Not run away from it, not try to hide any more. Prioritize. Deal with the uncomfortable situations. Feel the hard emotions, resolve the consequences from past actions.

This is the time to do it. This is the start.

Oh god give me strength.