29 January, 2010
27 January, 2010
Night Words
Sitting at the balcony with a cup of homemade ginger cinnamon tea. Even though I don't think you found your way to this page yet: Thank you Gus for that recipe, always been a pick-me-up throughout the years :)
I'm so nauseous. Been ever since a week ago when I had a severe allergy reaction. Yep, one of those life threatening ones only peanuts can give you. I was lying on the cold pavement puking with my throat shutting close more and more, could hardly breath, and quickly became unable to communicate. Humbling to say the least. Both my body and mind panicking.
...Well I survived.
I'm grateful to be alive. Just bothered that my body gotten so weakened because I can't wait to make the most of the life I still have. Sitting around exhausted and nauseous is interfering with my precious time! I'm too excited.
My birthday on the 5th. Going to celebrate it, embrace it. A week ago I would probably have felt more anxious about the fact I'm getting older. Now I'm just happy about it =)
Brought some candles out here that I lit up. Made me remember my very best friend, when we were very young, we meet up somewhere outdoors in our beautiful hometown, far away from anybody else’s ears, almost always one of us had brought candles that we lit in the cold northern nights. As long as we had them our secrets were more important than freezing toes.
Today I made lattes and cappuccinos for stressed people, then a book signing at a mystery book store and gained a few bottles of fine wine. Tonight I watched a bad movie, with friends, which had its fine message and now I'm sitting here.
Exhausted since it's only the second day since the allergy reaction I've even been standing up. But I've been tired for so many days now that tiredness isn't a signal for the body to sleep anymore.
But I have the rest of the week to rest up so I'm sure it will even out.
I'll take a picture with my phone for you: